Still in disbelief

STILL IN DISBELIEF BY PATRICK ZALDARRIAGA/SEPT 14,2008

2 years have passed. No matter how many times I ignore it, it’ll be forever a fact that I was once a host of a dreaded disease that almost killed me. Although technically I’m not considered a cancer survivor yet, I’ve pretty much reverted back to the way I lived my life before the dark days of chemotherapy and surgery.
As the title said, I’m pretty much in that state of disbelief that something like this came upon me. Being diagnosed with cancer ain’t no walk in the park. It was another excuse yet again on why I’m different.
The same question pops in my mind everytime I think about what I went through this past few years. The same question that might help me discover my purpose in the supposed future. That question is “why me?”. Out of the 6 billion planetary population we have, I stood out and became different from all the others. There must be some reason why I had to go through that kind of anguish and pain.
That reason, I still have to find out.

During those times, it sucked not being normal. It sucked lying on bed with needles in my arm. It sucked having to go through a 12-hour surgery in the midst of a storm. It sucked not being able to do what kids of my age should be doing. It sucked being sad and lonely at times. But it’s a good thing there’s this little something called family. It made me realize how important they really are to one’s life and how they can help you take out anything in your way. There’s this other something too called friends. It’s amazing how they always stay by your side and keep your spirits high even in the lowest times. I cherished every moment they were at my bedside, keeping me company and showing their utmost concern. I can’t thank them enough for everything they sacrificed
I may be sorta living normally now but, that doesn’t change the fact that I was one of that 6 billion who suffered greatly. But without the strength from the people I care about, I may not be typing this post at all.
LiveSTRONG.